Zombie Doll

2nd Sept. 2008.
The opposite of a chaotic lifestyle is boredom. Sometimes, I wish my life is boring-so that I can catch up on all the other things to do. Here's an excerpt from my diary: [9/6/2008] It's my fault to fail myself. I'd failed my own health. I fail my own expectations. I cause my own troubles. If anything goes wrong, it's my fault. If there's any problem, it's my fault. I 'allow' myself to be lazy, procrastinate, be tardy, late & thus I'm chaotic & forgotten stuff. I have huge ... tendency to self0destruct. I've procrastinate til my problems suffocate me. I didn't focus or focus on the 'wrong' matters. I always struggle with myself. I have bad time management & wrong priorities. I didn't put enough efforts. I hate myself for not doing well in life. I am where I am because of what I did yesterday.


No Doubt - Don't Speak lyrics

You and me We used to be together
Everyday together always I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend I can't believe This could be the end It looks as though you're letting go And if it's real Well I don't want to know Don't speak I know just what you're saying So please stop explaining Don't tell me cause it hurts Don't speak I know what you're thinking I don't need your reasons Don't tell me cause it hurts Our memories Well, they can be inviting But some are altogether Mighty frightening As we die, both you and I With my head in my hands I sit and cry Don't speak I know just what you're saying So please stop explaining Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no) Don't speak I know what you're thinking I don't need your reasons Don't tell me cause it hurts It's all ending I gotta stop pretending who we are... You and me I can see us dying...are we? Don't speak I know just what you're saying So please stop explaining Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no) Don't speak I know what you're thinking I don't need your reasons Don't tell me cause it hurts Don't tell me cause it hurts! I know what you're saying So please stop explaining Don't speak, don't speak, don't speak, oh I know what you're thinking And I don't need your reasons I know you're good, I know you're good, I know you're real good Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts